I think fate NOT equals coincidence but coincidence equals fate (coz coincidence is part of fate). Simply because fate is a higher level of the unexplained that has to be differentiated from everyday coincidences.

I think it is dangerous to mix up coincidences and fate coz if u attribute things to fate, den u hang on to it because a special meaning has been attached ot it. But in actual fact, they are juz mere coincidences of everyday life.

I think if you dissected any relationship, no matter what problems there are or the level of mushiness the couples enjoy with each other...at the bottom of it all. All r/ships are the same. You know why? Coz there is this thing called love.

I think that reminiscence is healthy for the soul because it keeps u grounded in the belief of sweet memories. But indulgence in it will never let u back on ur two feet to look towards the future.

I think having great ideas is good because it keeps u occupied and allows you to realise these ideas sooner or later. Success or not, time will tell

I think alot of things...because its everyday happenings that make me think. enjoy. escape. live.

Having read maly's blog, i tink i got inspired to clean my room hahaha but im still like oni halfway done. Got malas to clean after awhile :p it looks much cleaner now, especially my desk :) gotta get ready for lectures nez week and my mum nagged at me to start preparing wad to bring for the cambodia trip....padahal its like 3 weeks away. Aiya so leceh.....but maybe i shall go get toiletaries and stuff tmr at causeway point, since im gonna meet wan basor for a library date hahahaha

And i was going thru lots of stuff, throwing things away and rearranging other things. I came across all the birthday cards, raya cards, valentines/friendship things...random postcards, random letters on NYJC foolscap ahha and u noe wad? I think i haven changed :) I still have frens who care for me, who wish me to succeed, who see potential in me....no change thru sec sch, JC and NUS yay for my frens :D i got to reminisce awwww :p and so...i reorganized all those stuffs into boxes and labelled dem family, JC, AMK Sec and NUS...so cool rite? hahahha

Even after IVP, life still somehow revolves around silat. The past 2 weekends have been spent at PERSISI for the silat championships. I tink i enjoy dis year's one the best compared to the past years...maybe coz i noe more pple :) i dun have to hide in one corner, not talkin 2 anyone heh thanks so much to IVP hehehe

Then more training with the kids for at least the nez two months. I think everything's coming into place. im especially grateful that more of the seniors are coming back after being MIA for so long...and the kids...even with their mcm2 kerenah, they are showing more commitment and enthusiasm :) ade yg mulut tk leh diam, ade yg action tau byk, ade yg slow, ade yg tk ambil kisah, ade yg asal bole hahahahha realli realli tough

My blk had a fire evacuation exercise dis morning. I couldnt wake up, so my mum went alone, but i joined her for the reception later on muahahahha so fazzy :p

The theme that stood out for me...being in disguise is liberating. And I couldnt agree more. We all have our own disguises for different contexts. And sometimes having such disguises allow us to feel free and do what we always wanted. Like you become more confident to do something - we use disguises to fit into a particular context. For example...if ure at uni, there is a certain way of behaving or being gile and having some jokes, but if ure somewhere else like hanging out wif mats kat bawah block, ur lingo changes, the way u act changes, the things u talk abt also change. Its a disguise, a facade, a means to get along :)

Slacking at home is a reprive after a hectic month of planning...but im getting bored haha i need to be in the company of friends to be gile2 wif :p

This time round, chop2 managed 2 get myself 2 pairs of jeans, a polo T and a T-shirt....not bad eh? hahahaha tak slalu per i go and shop....and yes, wan was a good shopping partner (standard guy shopping buddy) "Ok jugak ar tu" or "Boleh ah...not bad"or "Brape ah?" hahhaha and i oso give the same answers :p so maybe guys dun realli have an opinion wen it comes to shopping.

Somehow the whole world is at causeway point. Wen having lunch at pizza hut, the girl serving us suddenly talked to me in Malay. So terkejut jugak. Not many pple talk 2 me in Malay the first time dey see me haha Al-kisah, she's noorianti from NTU silat who beat diana and she was commending NUS Silat for a very well run competition. BAIK NUS!!!!! haha

Den at sportslink, ternampak budak silat RP. And den went to royal sporting house, terjumpe kak ruby ngah shopping ngan indra. And we chatted awhile abt IVP stuff ahakz. Outside cold storage, terserempak ngan Din Sendeng hahaha wan was like, seme org kau kenal :p i guess IVP was good, coz it realli expands ur network and u get to make frens :)

It was nice meeting Nora at the library and then Maly for tea :) Haha had a nice long chat and updating each other abt our lives. Wow altho it was 2 weeks, there were lots 2 catch up on and yes i had a nice time maly :) On another note, Coz u dun meet often, its amazing how much u have missed out on each other's lives. Its really sad when u drift from ur frens...but sometimes, its juz inevitable and u gotta keep moving on. But times like dis, when both r free and over a cup of coffee, it looks as if nuthin has changed

Apparently pple at CC missed me hehehe dey kept asking me 'Abg Fad, asal lame tk turun???' haha and u noe my massal steps????? the one i thot out for the competition...my guru da tukar lahhhhhhhhhhhhh haiyooo....im so bingit. But well, it looks nicer now heh, so i have much 2 learn, cannot riak :) and siti mcm biase manja2 wif me yay! she made my day :D

Two out of Three

I seriously think that achieving two out of three goals is more than wad i expected of myself.

1. Organizing

Organizing a tournament that was generally smooth and well run with ceremonies looking grand and organized, logistics stuffs that were settled very well and bazaar....a hit with the competitors and public :) i applaud my sub committees for a job well done and i do apologize if at times i have 'extended PMS'. hahaha i get stressed easily and its not everyday dat i lose my temper :p and also to Dr Saiful for being mean and rude....but i juz cant help it. Im pulled from all sides and wen he asks a simple and what-i-think-is-not-important task 2 be done, i juz cant be bothered and lose my cool. To my sub comms...sometimes i push u too hard, coz im a perfectionist and i dun wanna look bad executing what was painfully planned. And wen pple like abg jas scold me in front of others, i get malu. So dats y i push u guys and dun look appreciative

I think Kamal is fantastic. He knows how to take charge and take control. I dun. I know how 2 do things well and good but i dun take ownership and make pple listen to me. Kamal knows how to be professional and be cool in front of others...then let off steam at the back with all the *@!#? words. hahaha but thats the way it should be done. His presence as events manager is great....OK lah altho we fight on whose comm is better, i think both our comms are winners in our own ways :)

Md Noor...u rock la u hahaha same as kamal, he knows to let off steam at the back but remain tempered in front of others. I think both are good liaison officers and i have much to learn. Sometimes i can be pleasant...but wen pple take u for granted...jaga ah hahahaha But other than that, he's a great PD...keeps the committee focussed and on track to pull off a great tournament.

Raiyan...jgn ckp la haha he's our captain marvel....tak tido pasal buat technical stuff, maseh bole menang gold hehee congrats!

2. Silver for Regu

If u wanna call it a miracle, i'd be glad to share ur sentiments! im very syukur that even with just 2 weeks of practice, we got silver and lost the gold by just 1 point. I think it says much abt the level of commitment, dedication and desire to bring back a medal. And we beat the girls!

3. Loss in Tanding

Well, there was sumthin 2 sacrifice coz im not superman. heh but i'll be back nez year wif a greater desire and passion to actualli win. I was actually of my opponent coz he's good and from national and all dat. But wen i tink again, dis was the guy whom i exchanged hp nos wif on the last day! sheesh...dunno y i scared for hahaha but of course a learning lesson for me....if i overcome my fear, insya allah im able to perform better...muz remember dat!

Yesterday was realli tiring coz we completed all the logistic stuff with just 12 pple. IF there was one thing im disappointed thru out the tournament, is the responsibility of the peeps. Its always the same pple doing the so called 'dirty' work. What happened to bonding and doing things together? bile time happi2, everyone wants 2 join in. But wen ask for help, pple disappear. But its the same everywhere....it is to be expected. I shall upload the pics later on hahahah and thanks guys for a great dinner at east coast lagoon and sitting by the waterbreak :) its indeed a well deserved break for all of us :)

Dis is like my 1st rest day in weeks, literally! haha i slept the whole day....but my body still aches. Tomorrow gonna start on ceremonies meetings again and den training. Eventho kalah oredi, still have 2 go training and give support to the rest who are still competing :)

Yesterday's fright nite was kinda relaxing. At my station, ghosts were supposed 2 kidnap 2 kids and the rest of the grp had 2 come to me and Ahmad to blajar silat, den perform to the ghosts! hahaha and so i ajar silat, bebual merepek sayin things like kene bersuara to get confidence, must look fierce and tegas to show u not scared of anythin hahaha but whilst waiting for the kids 2 come, we all sat in a circle in the middle of the pathway having macs picnic hahaha....there was sarah, izean, samsiah, nadiah, ahmad and the VJ guys. It was kind of a get to know session with these guys who helped out in PB for CCA points :p and we played nonsense games like the thumb game, 7-up and 'one pig fell into the mud oink!' game

But highlight of the night was of course the 2am supper at fong seng with izean and nadiah :) haven talked 2 dem in ages and it was nice eating, drinkin and sharing tissue prata and juz talking :) so thx girls....we were later joined by zola and a half asleep kamie, dey were celebrating their 11mths so sweeet hehehhe

tomorrow its back to work! hahaha and it will all be over soon!

Im in school...hahaha supposed 2 be helping for PB, but feeling abit malas :p 2 days of IVP down....and i must say im realli proud of my committee. They realli did a great job. The technical team very efficient, ceremonies....hats off man! logs realli great! Food/welfare, so much to do attending to the whims of the wasit2 haha, publicity for great t-shirts, banner and media coverage (my face takde seh...) , marketing for the money we have now 2 spen :p and bazaar....realli impressed that its such a hit with the participants! :) and of coz md noor and kamal for being excellent event managers, attending to problems, solving dem, making sure things run smoothly :)

Im sorri for pissing pple of the past few days. Ive been very pushy with me being stressed out. Well who wouldnt if ure the APD, fighting and doing seni (ni case practice less than 2 weeks). Im really happy that things are going very nicely, i lost my prelim match. Hakim says i got performance jitters, and i couldnt agree with him more. Thanks lots for all the support and cheering, but i dunno why i couldnt rise to the ocassion. I wasnt playing my usual game and i noe i still have to overcome the mental and psychological barrier. If not i can never win. Abg azmi and abg jas disappointed with me, i noe so. Dey put high hopes on me, but i diden deliver. OF coz a consolation is the regu silver. We beat the girls!!! hahaha me, naufal and daud had a goal...to beat the girls regu team haha they got 3rd...and proud of them :)

Tired to update so much. So things aint over yet, but so far so gd...insya allah we end with a bang! Please NUS pple come down and support and make lotsa noise! Team NUS won 15 out of 21 matches played the past 2 days....and dat is impressive by any standard! So semis and finals, give us ur full support! PESILAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT N-U-S!