Something I pondered about :) Wow...it has really been that long :p I suddenly had the urge to write something to remind myself and I diden want to put it on facebook coz everyone will see it and I dont wish to attract too much attention. I was watching the latest edition of American Idol and honestly, I think its more fun with the new judges (although it seems dat pple get thru to hollywood more easily, but I doubt that is too much of a problem).
They featured a story about this 28 year old guy who was engaged and sang really well. He was happily engaged to a really pretty girl and was about to be married in two months time when she got into an accident and fell into a coma. She came out of the coma but suffered multiple disorders...she couldnt walk, lost her ability to control her facial features and even had some form of Alzheimer...u noe ur limbs juz keep shaking all the time. It was so so sad...and the guy continued to care for her and they had to postpone the wedding. But what made me tear was wen he said: "What kind of guy am I if I leave her at a time when she needs me the most?" And he smiled very nonchantly...like this is my duty and I accept it.
And I realized that if I am unable to reach that form of unconditional love (or even close to it), then I am not ready at all...Time will heal and time will tell, yes indeed.
Just to add a lil bit more, on the way to sch this morning my sis asked me what kind of girl I liked. you know...long hair or short hair...and so on. Then she asked: "would you walk in front of ur partner or side by side". Straight away, I said side by side although not convincingly and she was saying..."but u shd be leading her!"And then it struck me...in the past, when I walked with my partner, for some reason I always ended up behind her and many a times she would look back and ask why I walk so slow? You know, when u walk behind someone, you would see dat person...now it strangely appears that I'm "checking her out". But it cant be, there muz be something sub-conscious too. And I realized this...which I told my sis:
"I walk behind her because I don't want to leave her behind." :) I learnt something about me today :)
