Sunday, June 01, 2008
12:05 AM
Post Op Depression Phase
Honestly, the past two weeks was realli a depression phase. I mean i diden really go out 2 meet pple, rarely tegur pple on msn or if not, i keep getting 'hey, hows the arm?' messages hehe brooding over being unable to play having trained so hard the past year, waiting 2 play ganda 4 3 years, only to break an arm 2 weeks b4 comp...and ganda moves goin thru my mind or the friendly match. So yea...i have been hiding in my shell, wallowing n self pity n the utmost feeling of vulnerability (da la dlm sling, my bone berlubang2 pulak tu).
Den suddenly i saw the light! (dramatic ah sikit) things are beginning to fall into place...like things i had overlooked in trying 2 juggle a couple of projects n silat at the same time...im able to better commit and manage, perhaps more impt things :) and i also realized that i haven given my support to team NUS and especially my sis...who has been goin 4 training while i lull abt at home. i believe in you ok? dun sad sad, dun stress stress! I will start coming down!
oh kamie n zola...my bear nye name 'coolshine'...pasal dier pakai topi cool n mata dier sepet tapi mcm 'glowing' gitu mcm sunshine haha
this week has been fruitful...met up with my nyc teammates val, jun and mas. things are starting 2 look good! sushi n waffle ice cream n chocolates n kaya buns n library books! MHA talk wif soci pple -chris, eugene n oliver! Simpang outing wif mas, jannah, haida, rino n latiff! Alhamdulillah good results! :)
Thanks you all for being there for me. You all know who u are hehe :) to sum up this post: CHONG's BACK!!!!!!
.sincera fazzy.
